you know the kooky saying about life giving you lemons, and then you've got to go ahead and figure out how to make lemonade...so at least you get something good from crap. i think that it's a process. You're not going to get lemonade instantly. first you might sulk over the pile of lemons. then maybe you decide to walk away. of course you come back, because the lemons are staring at you. now you decide to make the damn lemonade. how do you make lemonade? well...you have to find the juicer first. then when you finally unearth it, you cut all the lemons in halves. then you are finally ready to make the lemonade. so you start juicing...and the lemon juice is squirting everywhere or you're getting too much pulp. You even have to figure out how to juice properly. After you've got all the lemons juiced, time to add the sugar. how much sugar do you like on your lemonade? taste check. see what i mean about this whole thing being a process? and this is what i want my live-journal to be: evidence of my process. i'm going to get lemons and you'll get to see how I am at making lemonade. and now that you all are asleep, i'm going to say hi.